Nobody around me seems to understand what I am going through
I am trying to do recovery .. AGAIN. After hundreds of failed attempts. My boyfriend said to me ‘maybe you’re overdoing it’ because my stomach swelled up and my water retention is through the roof. I have gained alot of weight but it’s literally mostly down to the fact the I have relapsed about 6/7 times just trying to get through the initial refeeding stage, like night sweats and exhaustion etc. my mum and my boyfriend have both told me to go to the gym. I feel like nobody on this planet understands what I am going through. The rapid weight gain is just the refeeding process.. I am NOT OVERDOING IT. But still,, it makes me feel literally suicidal. I feel so freaking alone just want to give up again.
Does anybody know how to get help and support there is nothing in my area, please do not suggest BEAT this charity has been very unhelpful to me.