u/Sweaty_Push_1493

I am 23 years old femail from pakistan. I graduated as Software engineer in 2024. then i did ielts with 7 bands. i applied for italy universeties got placement in Naples FedricoII in may 2025. whole year wasted for italian visa prepration. Spent almost 7 lac on this. I started learning devops skills in feb 2026 build portfolio with projects on Git Hub. On 8 may 2026 I got rejected. Landed first internship as DevOps and business intern on 12 may. right now Im working remotely there. along side that I started applying to turkish universites. Plan is to study first smester there work so hard get placement in Germany through Erasmus. Till today I have 3 offer letters from universites. but fees are so high but I cant afford these.
so someone recommended hungry complete degree there then on 2 year PSW search work in Germany or any other Europe.
someone recommended get work visa for nether lands. But im still on early stages of career will not land better jobs easily.
Someone suggested get married and move to europe with spouse but he is in worst condition then me career or education wise . He does have money but i want to be support for my parents. Got no brothers only 5 sisters. Want to build career for them then get settled.
Also cant afford any rejection and waste money.
should i take turkey option or hungry or work visa?
Cant decide.... Its all risky paths but which path is worth risking.

It all started with my visa rejection from italy. we are not well off im only one in whole family who is educated. even my fiancé didn't even have basic education. its not he couldn't afford he was just not interested. But my father isnt that wealthy compared to all my Extended Family. So is been 2 years scince our enganment he said he loves me. my Extended Family ofcourse had issues with this but he stated he loves me. not with me for better futre or guaranteed europe visa (in pakistan europe visa is everything). me and my family trusted him we got engaged but now i got rejected from my italy visa. His attitude shifted I was exusted from rejection little heartbroken my 2 years plannning got rejected in a day. so i think that little anger as geninnue. We had little argument. He said are you okay? i said im fine. he said no you are depressed. That triggred i messeged him im fine i had a littile fall back dosent mean im dying. i will do it again stop trying to make me feel depressed. if im holding on let me. after 10 mints i said sorry for outbrst. next morning i left him msg with why i did this how im feeling and im oaky i vented it out. but his reaction was something else. he ignored me for 3 days then came complaining why you didnt come and appologize properly. It was that moment when i said what. am i supposed to make things right now. anyways i expalined again I said im in emotional disturbed mentally chalenging situation rightnow. ofcourse im i have to cover 80 lac loan pf my father my whole family is looking upon me. i have to find another way and im 23 years old damn it. anyways he said lets talks when you come out of this sitation of yours.
Now i dont want him. if he cant be with mee in my worst situation he dont have right to be with me in my beast days. amd that days will come. Am i overreacting about him or is it genuinly a red flag? should i hold him accountable for it?