u/SweetFury_

I think she's done. I wanna write so much but now I'm just crying and in a lack of words...

I regret so much thinking that my girl's weight loss was due to age.

She used to be really round and started shrinking a lil and I thought okay, she's around 12... must be cause she's getting old.

Sad part is that I already lost a cat to ckd in 2017, I should've known...

Only found out about the CKD cause she crashed...

Already really bad at stage 4.

Should've taken her to the vet before... should've have taken better care of her...

Been able to manage her well being for 3 months, but yesterday and today she's just... idk, she doesn't seem there.

We went for blood test yesterday, the results haven't got back yet...

But she's just still, drooling a lil bit... I won't even give her meds today cause I don't want to stress her.

She lost 600g in the last month, since last vet visit.

I don't wanna say goodbye but I don't want her to suffer either.

Why do they have to go through this??

I know that all things must die, and to it... it needs a cause, but why?

Why do they need to suffer? Why do we?

She was hiding under the bed, I put her on top.. she complained a lil... warmed a gel bag and put a blanky around her...

I think that's what I can do for the moment till the vet get back to me...

They don't work on Sundays, but I think she's gonna tell me blood test results...

I keep remembering when she arrived... my heart aches.

Edit: vet said that I should have a good day with her today... talk to her... "release" her... if needed, she'll come tomorrow for the assisted rainbow crossing... Her blood work is just, well... with the pardon of the expression... a true shit.

Ok, so... I have posted here a couple times about Olivia.

We are reaching the month mark of her "breakdown", when we found out she is a Renal Cat Stage 4.

Just a recap on what happened: I got home, mom said she wasn't okay. I went to check on her. She had an awful smell (it was a sunday and I spent the weeknd at my bfs, so yeah.. I just noticed when I arrived and mom told me), was drooling, her ears were cold and she wouldn't have food or water. I tried giving her churu, but she was refusing even that...

She have one big canine, so I was "maybe it's infected"... took her to the vet monday morning (april 27th).

Did the blood work, she had to stay there for a couple of days for IV fluids and monitoring.

She got a lil better, was asking for pets and accepting to eat churu... (just churu and nothing else.) so she got released for home care, since she had improved a lil.

I'm giving her subQ every other day, treating her with Pronefra (I'm from Brazil, so we have some different treatments available here), transdermal anti-nausea gel and now giving her antibiotics (SILMOX - cause she has suffering from an UTI... Amoxicillin Trihydrate and Potassium Clavulanate - something like clavamox) for 7 days - every 12 hours - now.

( I have placed an order for a new medice that's called NITROSTERIL VET - really interesting and promising one... My vet sent me a message about it, saying that I should look into it... "Nitrosteril Vet is an advanced amino acid supplement designed to protect the kidneys of cats, particularly those with Chronic Kidney Disease (CKD). It acts as a "nitrogen trap," preventing the buildup of toxic urea in the bloodstream while helping the body build healthy muscle and tissue.")

She SEEMS to be doing okay with all the care, having in mind I haven't started nitrosteril yet, cause it had not arrived yet...

but the thing is... she still won't eat anything... anything but churu or sheba...

when she was healthy she was around 4kg or a lil more... and now she's only 2kg... T_T

I tried a lol of things now... she won't have umid food... nothing... just churu or sheba, specifically these brands... I tried giving her other brands, and also egg whites with churu on top, she eated just once and never more.

Yesterday, she stoped in front of the feeders where my other cats eat, she seemed like she wanted to eat... IDK what to do... ;-;

TBH, can't wait for the nitrosteril arrive.. maybe she will feel better to eat again?

So I did my first post about Olivia here a couple of days ago...

My vet said she is in palliative care. To my understanding this is: just give her the churu and whatever she can take. We'll make the fluid therapy, give her the ondansetrone meds so she doesn't feel nauseated a lot and let her be on her time.

I asked the vet about the mirtz pill, and she said she doesn't think it is a good idea since I'll be putting too much meds on my cat.

But I have hope (should I?) That she can be and feel better even at this stage... is it possible?

She lost a lot of weight already and I was thinking about giving her the mirtz anyway, to see if she accepts the renal foods.

I don't want Olivia to suffer but I don't wanna let her go neither! :(

Maybe if she eats well, right? Or am I being too selfish?