Idk how much longer to take it
Trigger suicide mention and name calling mention
My partner started transitioning about 6 months ago. He came out to me and I was nervous about the changes but supportive. Now I'm just happy for him to be his true self.
I told him from the start, I would not leave him over being trans and it's true, I love him the same.
But the rest of his behaviour has become so hostile that it's damaging my mental health.
He doesn't seem interested in me the same anymore and most the time it seems like he's with me out of routine rather than love.
But I've just been loving him and giving him the benefit of the doubt.
Things are becoming a struggle now though.
He's been calling me stupid during arguments and even a r*tard. I really despise to be called stupid and it makes me feel insignificant.
To be called a bitch is also standard from him now.
If I am not feeling ok about my body, I am told "you're not the one with xyz *names his disliked body parts*" and I get shamed for expressing my insecurities. He doesn't even try to lift me up (he was very body positive towards me when we were first dated).
During arguments he doesn't care how I feel.
He just wants to be right.
He doesn't even listen about why I'm upset. Or a few times he has directly said shut up or shut the fuck up.
He hangs up the phone tells me he hates me, leave him alone, shut the fuck up.
Idk I just feel lonely and disrespected.
Every time I try to leave he threatens suicide, threatens to post my nudes, sends crying videos or other things to make me go back to him.
I feel like an evil person leaving him mid transition but I am falling apart mentally here.