I have a totally free day and looking to run the raid as many times as humanly possible today.
I've literally got all day except for 2 hours in the early evening.
Anyone interested?
Anyone up to run the raid a bunch of times? I have all night.
I started having really bad panic attacks for the first time about 15 months ago.
They came out of nowhere, no triggers, no life events, no health scares. Ended up in the ER a couple times (I had no idea what was happening to me, thought it was a heart attack the first time, that I was going crazy the next).
After getting paired up with a good doctor, I got short term medication solutions, therapy, and coping solutions. At this point, I've mostly eliminated them. Even the few I've had in the last year, I've managed to knock them down in the moment.
I've started to grow concerned about something, however, and wondered if this community may have answers for me (or at least experienced with it).
I've started having strong flashes of panic at weird, inappropriate, existential moments. Things like:
- Thinking about mortality as I get older getting ready to fall asleep
- Watching a TV program with a guy getting put into prison for life, and having a thought about what I would do if that happened to me
- Participating in an interactive experience about the vastness of space and our smallness within it
- Waking up in the middle of the night thinking about a life stressor
I've been able to knock these flashes down through coping mechanisms, but some of them are surprisingly strong and at least one of them has required a use of my medication to knock down the panic. It seems weird that having a thought about something from a freaking TV program could cause such a strong reaction.
Frankly, it's got me worried about my mental health; especially long term.
Does anyone have experience with this? Is it normal, is it mental health related, etc? Any advice would be appreciated.
It finally happened for me! I've been playing this game off-and-on for 15 years. I stopped playing for a long time after having kids, but picked the game back up in 2020 and got serious about 3 years ago.
Twice I've gotten to the point where I was regularly shooting 80-85 only to tear my lead knee - leading to 6+ months off and 2 swing rebuilds.
After a lot of weight loss, PT, and weight lifting, I'm finally pretty confident in staying healthy, but the breaking 80 monster stuck around. Today was just one of those days - putting wasn't amazing, short game was average, but both irons and driver were working.
10/14 FIR and 9/18 GIR was the ticket! Had a little scare on 18 when my approach ended up in the bunker, but I was able to get out while leaving myself a 6' putt (which I missed but gave myself a 6" tap-in).
Best part is I did it all on front of my boss and the course pro! The pro shop guy was so stoked for me that he gave me a leather scorecard holder, logo ball, and ball marker for free to celebrate.
I have a round at a "once-in-a-lifetime course" in a week, so now I'm just hoping I didn't leave all my good shots on the course today. Can't wait to get back out there!