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I just am feeling the resentment towards me build and build from the team I work with. I totally get it. I’m part time and very pregnant. The issue is that the resentment is building but I still get near perfect yearly reviews and no correction to action or guidance. I am just guessing what they are upset with. Probably mostly the fact that they have to cover some of my work, which I just can’t control when I get work on a day off. I’ve been there for about a decade working with the same people and it’s been fine until recently. It’s such a shit show at my work with a ton of lay offs so I know not all of the hate is from me. I think a lot of people are sick of working there in general. Sorry, just venting because I am trying my best at home and never seem to catch up and I am trying my best at work and everyone is so pissy all the time. I feel like a sahm and a working mom in one and I just can’t keep going. Unfortunately since I am very pregnant this is not a time to get a new job. I don’t know where else to complain because I don’t want to burden my husband with my troubles. I know every mom feels this way. Just feeling down today.

Regardless of how many YouTube videos or information we watch my husband and I seem to land on different pages on what lust is or is not. How do I know where the line is on lust vs attraction?

Example I walked past a man who I thought was attractive. All within about 15 seconds I looked at him and thought “he would be a good fit for a role of Achilles in a Hollywood movie” then moved on. Literally didn’t even have to guide my mind elsewhere it just was naturally onto the next thing. Is seeing and taking note of beauty sinful? I never consumed nor did I envy. Just saw beauty and noted it. My husband seems to think that lust happens within seconds and that anything like the above scenario is lustful and unfaithful. He has struggled more with lust than I have, so perhaps he is having a different experience. It seems like we can hear the same thing and take away two different answers.

I have been increasingly anxious about this problem as my kids age. My oldest will start 5k next school year and right now my husband has decided to hold off on Catholic school for another year or two due to finances. We have to pay off a couple of things before we add a new monthly payment, but I can’t shake this feeling that I’m sending my kids into an unknown abyss of behaviors and exposures. I think I’m idolizing Catholic school too much by thinking my kids will never be exposed to anything. I was a wild child in public high school and would like my kids to not have that opportunity. Are there Catholic resources on what parents should do to prevent exposure? What conversation to have and when? Any information on how to raise our children during a time when porn is seeping in to everything! Everything I find online is for adults who use porn. Thank you.