Im tired but wont ever be done
Im 32. Ive had full custody of my 8(boy)(ADHD) and 7 (girl) year olds for 18 momths now after I left 2 years ago. I've tried to include her in their lives but she doesnt care I dont think. Never calls to try speak to them i have to get in touch every 2-4weeks so they can see her during the day for a few hours because they wamt to see their mum. I work a demanding managment job that luckily is hybrid so can do school runs but between dancing (girl), soccer (girl) and football (boy) thats 3 nights a week training or something. Then saturdays full cause I play senior soccer too. Im lucky to have bought a 3500m2 lot with an older but bigger place on it 20 mins from a regional hub and 5 mims from a small town where school and sport is. But with everything i feel like im drowning. Id never give up but I feel like I'll never be able to be me or happy again. I have mates i never see, can never do anything social and when I can get someone to watch the kids i just bender thinking im catching up for lost time. I wouldnt change a thing I own a house have two great kids am active fit healthy and have a 6 figure hybrid job but between making lunches at 6am then at 7.30pm when kids in bed washing floors and dishes and wiping cupboards to replying to emails and answering calls all the time i dont know if ill ever get a break or if its the rigjt thing actually for the kids