Today i relapsed with alcohol. It has been a 2 year process and my record has been just a few months. This time it was only about a week. But once again i look down and see my little sheebs at my feet. She might not be as expressive as my husky mix lol but she is just as emotionally intelligent. I love that girl🤧
I just need to vent a little. I am a 34M, only started drinking about 4 years ago, and I quickly became a day drinker, drinking 12-20 drinks a day 3-4 days a week. Ive been trying to quit alcohol for almost 2 years now (therapy and AA) and until trying naltrexone i had very little success. I started naltrexone 7 weeks ago, and today I am 7 weeks sober.
Im am very happy with the progress ive made. This is the longest ive gone without alcohol, but the side effects are tough. Its been 7 weeks of numbing depression, no sex drive, ed, low energy, no appetite, no interest in hobbies and just feeling off.
I haven't felt like myself this whole time and I dont know how much longer i can keep this up. I know its not a good idea to wait until my mental health gets to a dangerous point, but at the same time I dont feel like i have a choice to stop the medication cause there is a good chance I'll relapse and i dont want to disappoint my wife.
Anyway these thoughts have been bouncing around my head for a while and i just needed to get them out. Thanks for reading❤️