is it possible to have a brain injury without knowing?
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i’m 24 and female. had 3 concussions from 14-17 years old and got in a bad car accident when i was 18 years old. i fell asleep, went air borne then hit a tree going 50 miles an hour. almost had my right knee below amputated, broke my hand and lower arm, torn out a large amount of hair from hitting the windshield with my head.
i’m very lucky and thankful for my doctors. i was in a trauma unit by myself since covid was heavy on the radar and never asked my doctors any questions. i just remember crying. a lot and nurses talking about my leg.
but my question is about my head. ever since my accident i’ve felt different like a different person. and i hate it. but i live with it.
-i can’t remember anything.. not because i don’t wanna but because i literally forget everything.. for example i don’t remember any of my families birthdays except my daughters and fiancés. and forget almost every event that is going on.
- i use to be out going and now the thought of talking to anyone makes me wanna throw up and i physically have before when meeting my fiancés co-works.
-i loved going outside, now if im outside for more then 5 minutes i feel like im about to pass out and start sweating BAD.
-i day dream a lot and ignore those around me on accident.. i do this constantly.
- i loved being around my family and now i would rather just be alone. they don’t even invite me to family outings or weekend vacations because they know ill say no or just ignore the invite..
- i dont find joy in anything and have no friends. i would rather be alone in my house then have to go out with others..
-i wear headphones a lot.. i hate silence, it makes me fall asleep so i always have an earphone in listening to a podcast or something.
- i quit my job this year because i kept falling asleep when we were slow, crying after human interactions, would daydream instead of tend to customers, i would forget to do important things before closing down. at a job ive been doing since i was outta high school.. the manager was very nice to me and i never got in trouble but i hated myself for it.
- i have to put everyone before myself or ill forget to care / talk about them.
my dad says it’s depression which may be true since i have medication for that but even on the medication i feel this same way just with more energy instead of being exhausted all the time.
i imagine they would’ve checked my head when i was in the trauma unit back then.. but is there a possibility something didnt show up. idk maybe im just like this now.
im going to my personal practitioner tomorrow and my women doctor next week so maybe i can talk to them about this also.. but last time i mentioned it to my personal practitioner he just kinda wrote it off so i never brought it up again.
i just would like some advice on what to do or say, i haven’t been to the doctor in a long time..
thank you in advance for reading this!