u/Terrible-Tutor9366

This is all not healthy for me to find a text here and relate it to my situation because you will always be ambiguous
Idk if the letters were for me
Who are you if the letters were yours how do you know me so deeply
Why don’t you admit it you know better than me
This is scary for me
You say it’s not embarrassing for you
Then why didn’t you tell me
I can’t be in the situation if it’s one sided it’s so difficult for me to even trust when things like this happen
How could you see through me while hiding in ambiguity
I choose to keep my mind safe
I won’t chase you

I know you didn’t want an answer
And I know my words don’t match my actions and your actions travel faster than your words but everything I have said to you is true.
I dont know when I started feeling it back but I do feel for you.
I saw it when you wanted me to see it and I knew it was you
I keep on wondering how do you know but sometimes I think I know too
No one has shown care for me as much as you do, no one has tried to make me as happy as you but I do hate me sometimes around you when the game we play reverse and I see losing myself trying to appease you. When I try to adjust according to your mood swings and You turn cold and distant too.
When the delusion lifts and you validate it to be a delusion. I face the reality and guilt, I try to avoid you. Sometimes I fear you know too much than I do and when I can feel the lies I try to avoid you. I know those lies are important
I don’t know what to do then. I chose my life and I can’t change it for a feeling that can’t even be acknowledged.I haven’t even seen you properly I hope you change that soon.
I know this is not healthy . I know you want your freedom and even if you didn’t, I can’t give you what I want to give . I just wish we stay in touch maybe take breaks when it feels overwhelming . I hope you find love because you deserve it and I might not be able to give it to you but I am selfish to let you go too . I know you would be leaving some day , I might be too. I can’t stop any of us but I want to thank you too. You’re a beautiful human being and you would do great , just be happy all the time. I wish the syncs last a bit more longer and I can feel you too. Stay strong I like you a lot you know. Thank you for giving me my dreams again.