u/Teru_gh

I blocked him on every social media, even in my phone calls and messages. That was two days ago. Why is it that, knowing he was very hostile towards me, that he destroyed my self-image, and that he didn't care to hear my side of the story, I'm feeling like blocking him is a betrayal, even though he was the most valuable person in my life? Thinking about not seeing him again for a long time terrifies me. I imagine I'll never find someone with the same good qualities he had.

By the way, the reason I blocked him was because he cheated on me with his ex.

My relationship with my partner has been very difficult and destructive. We weren't officially a couple because I was afraid of being in such a difficult relationship. We ended things about two weeks ago, but we kept talking. A few days ago, he told me he was hoping I would suggest getting back together. Today I called him, and he told me he had been with his ex. I should mention that I felt very insecure about her throughout our relationship; for a long time, I’ve had horrible nightmares involving her and my partner. I don't know what to do; I’m desperate. He tells me he did it out of sadness and anger. I don't know what to say to him. He says he did it because, in our relationship, he didn't feel like a priority or that his feelings were taken into account.

I feel very sad and lost.