Trying to get out of the web is so difficult
Been in findom for about a year
I keep going through addiction and relapse cycles
This most recent cycle has been bad
Ill be sick of findom and swear to myself to never to do it again, only to come back to reddit a few days later just scrolling findom subreddits being curious and messaging dommes and playing with fire, or messaging my old dommes
I feel like im trapped in a web
at this point i dont know what to do anymore because no matter what i do the cycle keeps happening
thankfully i have been somewhat controlled with my sending, that is my only positive, but still i always think shit im sending 100s (over a year its come up to like maybe 2/3k) that i could be using on actual positive and healthy things in my life
i dont want to be in it but i cant help myself
how do you escape the cycle????