u/TheLeninTrain

My autistic girlfriend and I have been in a long distance relationship together for 9 months. She lives in the US and I live in Europe. We communicate exclusively via texting on WhatsApp. There's a 6hr difference between us.

Monday a week ago, we had a slight misunderstanding. She was telling me about her day and told me she was listening to some James Charles drama while she was working. Wanting to keep the convo going I asked if she wanted to tell me about it, she said no because she was busy. I was a bit tired (sleepy, it was midnight) and responded "Fair enough, I'll do some research myself" (in my mind I meant it as "I understand, I'll not burden you more, I'll go look it up and report back", I was trying to show I respected her time). She told me she wasn't a live reaction channel or a streamer. I told her "Fair enough, I thought you'd want to tell me about the drama" She didn't understand it that way and the next morning I woke up to her message "What did I do wrong?" And before I could reply she had blocked me...

At first I thought this was a regular shutdown, usually I give her a couple of days and she re-emerges. Thursday evening rolls in and usually by this point I would have had a little "Hey I'm a bit overwhelmed, talk to you later" message. But I got nothing.

In absolute fear and confusion at her silence, I messaged her multiple times via SMS and on her Facebook asking if we were okay. She saw my messages and read them. Thinking something really bad was going on I called her multiple times (she never picks up as it makes her anxious). I then received two texts from her "Stop" "You're scaring me". And then I was blocked.

It's now a week later. I've had time to reflect... And I'm so scared I destroyed a relationship with the most wonderful woman I had ever met.

Edit: I should also note, I have an anxious attachment style and a fear of abandonment. (Both of which I'm working on in therapy). So silence always screams "They are pulling away"