I once coached a team and was super into one of my players.
For a few years, I coached a soccer team, and one of my players became the center of my entire world. He was over a full decade younger than me, but he was more of a man than I was even as a teenager.
He was everything I’m attracted to: macho yet lean, smooth musculature, thick jacked thighs that flexed with every sprint, and a cocky swagger that made it clear he knew he was the best on the field. And then there was his bulge—even flaccid, which was massive and super impressive. I’d watch him train shirtless, his body glistening with sweat, and I’d instantly get so horny.
I worshipped him. I’d do anything to be near him just to spend extra time in his presence. I was completely obsessed. Multiple times a week, I’d watch him train, get hard, and then rush home to fantasize about him for hours. The age gap made it even hotter—the idea that I, the older, supposed authority figure, was completely powerless against a teenager’s body and confidence.
I never acted on it. But for years, my life revolved around ‘A Certain Someone’ - as I’d refer to him as. I’d fantasize about and get off to him constantly. It’s been a few years now since those days and I still occasionally masturbate to him. The pleasure was unlike anything I’d ever felt. He‘s also the only player I’ve ever fantasized about, period. No one else like him ever came before or after and it still consumes me.
So, Reddit—have any of you ever been this obsessed with someone you shouldn’t have been? How did you cope? Did you ever tell anyone?