u/The_Mental_War

My minds eye is a pure black void but I can use like highly pressurized wind pushing in different directions which can make my physical body feel that pressure that I created in my minds eye. If I push down in my mind I feel a heavy pushing down feeling in my chest. If I push up I instantly feel light headed and it also feels like a massive wind gust is going through my head in a very negative way.

It can also help me solidify memories, and help me navigate thoughts by what directional pressure I am using mixed with my chaotic physical sensations across my whole body they work in unison along with my own logical thoughts.

Am I alone in this?

I think it should be called a fear disorder not mere anxiety. I have had both there is a difference. When you tell people you have an anxiety disorder it doesn't convey the life destroying symptoms this condition can cause.

The fear is so extreme and persistent that some of us need to spend all of our extra money buying medication and going to therapy just to survive because the fear is so intense and debilitating. All of this considered we deserve a better and more respectable name than "anxiety" However I think we have crossed the point of no return when it comes to the names of mental health conditions but it is still upsetting.

It is hard to describe but basically it is a insidious dullness that is very painful to the point that it damages my willingness to live. This has been fucking with me since I was a kid.