u/These_Fix1342

I've done 5 Ketamine infusions at a clinic and my anxiety has increased so much! Tomorrow I'm doing my 6th and what if it gets worse? If that's possible. A trauma has come up during my infusions and I'm working with that with a psychologist to intergrate. The clinic still thinks I should do the last one tomorrow and I want to because I still have a little bit hope.

What if I'm damaged for life after this? What if the Ketamine put on an anxiety that will never disappear? I'm so so scared and it feels like I'm living in a constant panic attack.

I did my third IV at a clinic today. They increased the dosage. I felt so depressed during the experience. And my experiences doesn't make sense. It's just memories and when I 'came back' I felt so sad and melancholic. I work with integration with a psychologist. So far it hasn't done anything for me. No decrease in anxiety or depression. Maybe even increased. I've told the clinic this.

So I'm doing Ketamine infusions at a clinic for severe anxiety, depression and PTSD. I've only done 2 infusions and I have no difference in my well being. My thoughts are racing as usual and the anxiety level is mostly 10/10. I've read that many doesn't respond until the 3rd or 4th treatment. But I can't stop worrying about me being the 30-40% that this doesn't work for..I'm 42 years old with a child. I feel I have no options left if this doesn't work.

I've been in ALL kinds of therapies for 25 years and tried almost every medication there is. I've done coaching, hypnosis, been admitted, you name it.

What do I do if this doesn't work?

I'm having my second infusion at a clinic today. I want to forgive myself. Shall I think about that when the session starts? I'm very nervous. My first infusion was a bit weird and it didn't help much