Assalamualaikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatu, hey everyone! What do I do?
Assalamualaikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatu. I hope you are are doing well, I am a little bit uneducated when it comes to Islam. And unfortunately, there's a reason I am on this subreddit...May Allāh forgive me, and us all Ameen. I just wanted to ask, if it's okay to ask Allāh to shorten your life? Like, let's say I make a Dua along the lines of, "Ya Allāh, please take my life if this sin will be stuck with me." It's very on the nose, but it's there. I am pretty young, and I do not want to live anymore. Not because of Allāh, but just myself. Perhaps it's shaytan, and that I know, but it's also just me. I know taking your own life is Haram, it's something I would think about often, but I am scared. I want to make Allāh happy, but I can't change like this. I don't wanna live, I have no will to live anymore. Is there something I can do?