Had a terrible experience with a dab pen on the 29th of June, considering quitting.
For some clarification I'm fairly young, low body fat, moderately active, decent-ish diet.
On the 29th of June at approximately 3:15am, I took a hit from my dab pen as I have been doing and have been completely fine doing multiple times a day, every day since may of 2024. Within 15 minutes I tried to swallow (nothing in particular, saliva I guess) but it felt like my tongue was sinking into my throat. I immediately felt like I was fucking dying, and I began having this clamping pain in my left arm, I felt like my higher consciousness was being sucked away from my mind (some form of dissociation), my chest felt like it was collapsing, and the sides of my head had the worst cold sweats I have ever experienced. I tried to lie down in my bed, but my heart and veins were beating out of my body, and I started hearing my own voice in my head as if it was disconnected from me (Feeling this happen, I decided to say some supportive things to myself in the third person, something like "I am here to guide you.") I felt like my room or bed itself was literally killing me, so I decided to lie down in the living room instead, and I started feeling better. Eventually I was able to get up and walk around, and look out the windows, and I felt very extrospective, like a higher than usual (but still tolerable) thc high. But I decided to go back into my room, and it all came back to me, so I had to lie down in the living room again. After like 2 or so hours it mostly passed, and I was able to fall asleep in my bed (had an odd dream literally just about picking out and eating food in a Chinese buffet) but as I was lying down I still had some pain in my left arm.
The day after, during some moments of down time I felt like I was dissociating in the same way as before, but eventually I was able to harness that feeling and I started feeling great, spiritual.
But near the end of the day, I just felt incredibly empty, very depressed. I'm using marijuana because my life is very hollow and I need something to fill the voids, so without it, the void is more prevalent than ever.
And just yesterday, I tried dry herb vaping a little bit of flower (less flower than I normally use mind you) and I had worse cardiovascular symptoms than ever before (besides the pseudo-heart attack incident that caused me to use less) and I felt like my neck was incredibly tense.
It's worth noting that the day I used the dab pen, I was running on 3 or 4 hours of sleep, and very little food. Although I did dry herb vape a normal amount of flower about 4 hours before using the dab pen, and I felt great/normal, as usual.
Has anybody experienced a sudden acute sensitization like this before? I'm really considering quitting but I'm not sure how to get through my days without it.
Considering antidepressants, as I am clinically depressed, stopped taking them a little while after I started using marijuana because I felt like it was doing a better job, and I was scared of serotonin syndrome.
For some more clarification, it's not like I have things I truly enjoy doing or could plausibly look forward to doing in my day, so it's not like I'm struggling to get joy out of things I should enjoy, I just have nothing to enjoy at all.