advice needed- did this go against boundaries?
I am a 19-year-old female, and this happened two days ago with a 19-year-old guy I have been talking to for about four years. We have hooked up twice before, but we had never had actual intercourse until two days ago.
I decided to go to his house and gave consent to having sex only if he used a condom. He agreed and put one on, but then proceeded to have really rough sex with me—to the point where I am now bruised. It was a lot more intense than I was anticipating, but because I’m not very experienced, I didn’t say anything.
In the middle of sex, he stated that he hated using condoms and insisted I give him oral sex instead. I did, but then he told me to stand up. I was super confused, and he proceeded to continue having sex with me without a condom. He told me to ride him, and I told him "not for long" because he didn't have a condom on. He just continued to have rough sex with me anyway. We only stopped because we heard a knock at the door. He never finished, which is a blessing, and I am on the birth control pill.
Afterward, I cried in my car because I felt so used in the moment. I can’t tell if what happened to me was normal or not, and I would appreciate any advice.