I completely wasted my youth and I don't think I will ever be over it
I just cannot cope with it. I literally wasted 20+ years of my life. No friends, no dating, no experience. Those years are supposed to be the best of your life but they were hell for me. And the worst part is that I didn't do anything during this time. I have no skills, no hobbies or anything interesting about me. I wish I had picked up something like drawing, playing an instrument or anything. I feel so depressed when I see all those talented people around me and on the internet.
I was (and I'm still) a loser and a loner. Now I'm 27 and I just don't see the point in continuing. I will never be able to get back those years. I will never know what it feels like to have a first dating experience, travel across the world with a backpack staying at hostels, party at uni and so on. I could still be doing some of that but it would just be ridiculous. Whenever I see younger people, I can't help but be jealous of them. Thinking about how much time they still have and how they are living the best years of their lives.
The only good thing is that I have a stable job. Not well paid but at least it pays the bills. That's the only thing I'm grateful for.
I wish life was like a video game and there was a "restart" button. It's so painful to know that there is literally NOTHING you can do about something. Nothing. All I can do is move forward but I don't think I will ever be able to.