What does this mean? I believe im both. But maybe im not broken or contrite enough. That God will hear me prayers and and ease my suffering and let me know He loves me not hates me
I’m sure you’re sick of me asking for prayers. I’m sick of me too. I wake up most morning wanting to die. I have and do all cry out to God. My life is ruined. I don’t see how even God can restore my life to be worth living. I e got a daughter and granddaughters. They are the only reason I haven’t put an end to me already. Most have no clue what my heart brain and soul go through everyday. I hear people say. Oh everybody gets depressed. Not for years at a time wishing they could die so hopefully it would stop. I know God could help me. That’s part of the frustration. My life is not life it is existence. Pray if you will. I’m just out of hope
I am not trying to beat a dead horse. I’m just trying to find a way clear to not waking up every day wondering if I’m saved. If I’m called. If I eliminated because of some sin. This video seems to answer the question. Will a couple of you watch it and give me your feedback? I realize you don’t know me or owe me anything! I’m just asking in hope. I love Paul Washer. This video makes God seem so welcoming. But then so many “calvanist “ videos makes God seem so reluctant. So against almost everyone except a tiny few. Some Paul washer videos kinda present God that way
I’m of the reformed belief. But the reformed preachers just say different things. Washer says the only people who can’t be saved are those who reject Christ. Then in another video says you’re going to hell if you play video games or have anything to do with the world. No I don’t play video games. Then you have Piper talking with Rick Warren saying if you are saved but do certain sins you are going to hell. They make no sense with one another. How can these men who supposedly believe the same thing. Be so different and preach so different?? I don’t get it. One says one thing one day then another another day the piper talks about election and then how if you do this you’ll go t hell. It makes no sense sense. Yes I’m reformed but thes guys just confuse me
I feel so hopeless I just want to die. I just see no future except this just being so depressed lonely and hopeless. Ask God t please give me some hope. 🙏🙏
I am having extreme depression I have depression most all the time. But some days I just want to die. It’s been like this the past few days. I need God to heal my mind some to help me so much. My wife divorced me almost 5 years ago. But there are constant thoughts of her and the thought of living the rest of my life life without her just makes me want death. I know you will say God is more important and I know that s true in my head. But it doesn’t make it through to my heart. The loneliness for her not just people although that is true too is something I wouldn’t wish on anyone. I’m not saying I m going to do anything today or tomorrow. But at this pace I am afraid I will eventually. Please pray for God to help me. I’m crying out to Him all the time. And when I have some relief it only lasts a short period of time. I have physical heart problems too and this is just making it worse.