Want to try Grindr but too Physically Anxious with Intimacy?
I am not very physically or emotionally comfortable around many people, and really like my space. I am great at setting hard boundaries and I love doing it. But, this means that I am so pent up. I haven't been with anyone is two years and I want to try Grindr. That said, when coming close to potentially meeting someone, I become so physically anxious that it feels like my body freezes up and my chest tightens, and the feeling worsens until I have to cancel it all and turn him down.
I have been in a relationship with one person before and I felt the same feeling in the first week of dating him. It eventually mellowed out to complete comfortability and adoration before it ended, but I had to get through that hurdle first.
Does anyone else struggle with this? In my head, hooking up sounds great but I almost have to force myself to actually do it and I don't know why. Anyone else have issues with physical intimacy? It does not stem from any homophobia.