Long term relationship and we do not have sex.
My partner M44 and I F43 do not have sex life. We go months between having sex. Probably have sex between 8 - 10 times a year. Every night we peck each other on the lips and sometimes cuddle sometimes don’t. Say I love you. We have dealt and talked about this situation for years.
In my life I have never had so much rejection from a man - from offering to be open minded and explore new things, lay back and get a blow job. Etc. he is not interested. We have heart to hearts and then some times blow up conversations that border on intense arguments about our sex life and try come up with plans to show up differently. Nothing changes. He believes that I put a lot of pressure on him to initiate - I feel like I can’t take more rejection and need him to pursue me. I still try and initiate last two times I tried he said no. At this point I lay here night after night and don’t know what to do. We have talked this situation to death. I miss the once or twice a month sex we used to have. I used to think that was infrequent- now I live in fear that I am 43 and will no longer have sex in my life. It is clear he does not want to have a sexual relationship with me. I am not sure what to do anymore.