u/ThrowRAAlarmed-Tie-5

I just kinda came to terms with being aroace and I just had a hangout with a group of friends with me being the fifth wheel. I just looked around and realized they all have someone closer to them than I could ever be. And of course, I’m not jealous of their partner but it made me realize I’ll never have someone’s always in my corner. I’ll have friends but their best friend will be their partner. It feels so childish when I write it out, but it sends me right back to being last picked in school. The worst thing is that it unchangeable. I will never be the closest person to anyone and there’s nothing I or anyone can do to change that. It just sucks.