I hate being a woman
There is nothing positive in being one. I hate the standards and the role that is forced on me. I hate periods and the expectation of having kids. I want to tear my womb from my body for how weak it makes me. I hate it. I hate the monthly discomfort and the pain. I hate woman clothes and the expectation for me to like it. I hate the beauty standards and me having to adhere to it. I hate my long hair. I hate that i will always be the weak one. I hate that i'm not even different from the avarage. That i'm not taller, bigger, so maybe i could make the differance smaller. There is no empowerment.
Apologies if there should be a Trigger Warning, i wasn't sure how to call this.
EDIT:
God i am overwhelmed. I want to thank everyone for the support, kind words and encouragement. I appreaciate all of you. My mood got better for sure.
Additional information:
- I'm Polish, so gun advice won't be helpful (tho i chuckled at some)
- I'm not really offended by the assumptions of me being trans, I had a lot of thoughts about it myself. However with me not really feeling like my own person, and wanting anything mine, I prefer not to declare anything, as i might just grab onto something to be anyone that wasn't decided by my mother or society. (This is not to say that being trans is a phase or some sort of confusion, just with my identity issues and a past of being controlled, i might not make the healthiest decisions out of desperation)
Thank you guys, truly.