Scaring myself
I began having symptoms about two weeks ago, and they've gotten more and more frequent and severe. I feel it all of the time - at work, away from work, all times of day - along with anxiety symptoms like my stomach dropping/flipping, feeling hot, and feeling nauseous.
The problem is that my job is working with kids and their families. I feel very aware of how my body is feeling when interacting with them and it is scaring me. It feels unacceptable to have my body feeling this way in their presence. I am overanalyzing things, but like I said these body feelings are all day every day, not just in certain contexts or with certain people. It's constant.
But the past few days whenever I have to interact with a kid I feel like I'm going to have a panic attack. I feel completely crazy and am judging myself very hard for having my body feel this way. I'm scared I need to quit my job or do something more drastic. I'm feeling avoidant of work now and don't know what to do.