I wanna stop, how do I heal this with minimal scars?
I feel disgusting.
Ive had bad skin on my chest, back, arms and hips for as long as I can remember. I have PMOS (PCOS) which means higher testosterone but have been taking esterol for about half a year now. The large spots are papules (if thats the correct spelling) that ive picked at for a long time. The one in the middle and 4th picture is the worst, ive literally cut into the open wound multiple times trying to get something out. The outside of the wound is raised and hard. It hurts a lot and when I move, the skin there is also moving and creasing, which doesnt help. Ive noticed this wrinkly(?) Reddish and flaky skin around healing spots (5th pic). Will they stay like this?
I live in Germany, the week ahead is going to be sunny. Is UV bad for the healing?
And, is there anything I can do to distract myself from the urge? Its very bad.
They also hurt, mainly the middle one. I wanna heal these so bad, but I always have these stupid episodes where I phase out and scratch open my whole chest. I wanna heal, physically and mentally, I wanna have a smooth chest, I wanna wear pretty low cut tops like every other girl. I hate this. Any and all advice, comment, criticism is needed and appreciated.