u/TibetSnow

Some days Im extremely depressed and suicidal and some days (once or twice a week maybe) im so happy for no reason - almost ecstatic ??

Does it have something to do with my AGP ?
Part of my depression is usually that I'm not a normal human being with this AGP shit going on that killed my confidence and I won't be able to have a normal married life. And I keep thinking if i should even marry at all. I don't think any girl would wanna marry an AGP especially in the muslim country i live in.

I been searching all over the internet trying to find a cure for this thing But got nothing. I'm honestly started doubting AGP theory myself, like most trans community does.

I try to keep track of my feelings, especially before and after I fap. And I noticed it's not that I wanna be a woman only when Im horny or smth. I crave being feminine all the time.

I have been on hrt for 2.5 months and I quit it 10 days ago (not cuz i didnt wanna be woman now, but cuz future might be hell since i live in muslim country) and these 10 days have been hell. My mental health worsened a lot with each passing day and suicidal ideation all the time. I will probably resume hrt and continue boymoding

being 26, I worry if i start transitioning even late, I will not look as good. So I must make the decision whether to transition or not. I see lots of AGP folks transitioning much later in life and I worry I will end up like that.

I feel like we have just two options; repress and suffer (and still end up transitioning as an old person), OR just transition fk it we have just one life why waste it suffering just to satisfy others.

I AM SO TIRED OF WASTING ALL THESE HOURS TRYING TO FIND A CURE ON INTERNET

WHAT DO I DOOO

Should I continue the hrt or suppress

"Unmarried AGPs" specifically, if you end up marrying a cis female, and she didn't care, would you want to have children?

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