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A part of me died with him

Yesterday we said our final goodbyes. I haven't stopped crying since. I actually had a panic attack as soon as the vet did it.

I don't know how to go on. He's been by my side for my entire adult life, 17 years. The amount of grief and guilt is unreal. I know it was his time, but I still make myself feel horrible thinking if there was anything else I could've done to keep him here for a little bit longer.

I know, I know it was his time. He had congestive heart failure and pulmonary hypertension. He was having these scary syncope episodes that sometimes left me thinking he was gonna die from one of them. We saw a specialist and the meds they gave him made his heart better but made him so, so sick in other ways. We took the best care of him we could at home, and he finally got a bit better during his last two days. This made me think maybe I should postpone the appointment, maybe get a few more weeks with him. But in my heart of hearts I knew I didn't want him to suffer any more. I didn't want the syncope episodes to come back, and he was still having seizures. He could barely walk on his own, and he couldn't go to the bathroom without help anymore. He still showed interest in food, but we had to force him to drink water. He was just exhausted.

I truly hope I did the right thing. Watching him pass was so traumatizing. He was my soul dog. My constant companion of almost two decades. I know I should feel lucky that he even lived that long, that he got to grow old. But right now all I can feel is dread, and pain, and loneliness. I want my puppy back so bad.

I wish there was an undo button, I wish I could turn back time, have another 17 years with him. I'm not coping well at all.

I just don't know how I'm gonna get through this. Waking up and seeing his empty bed is torture.

I hope he knew just how much he was loved, by everyone around him. By me. He was a piece of my identity. I don't know who I am without him.

Why does this hurt so much?

His name is Shiloh.

Edit: Thank you everyone so much for all of your comments and kind words. I've been mostly crying so it's been difficult to see the screen but I've read all of them twice over and I am immensely grateful for all of the kindness. Just surviving one moment at a time now...

u/TigerLilly00 — 2 days ago
▲ 41 r/deloitte

Can you take bereavement leave for pet loss?

My 17 year old dog is on his death bed and we'll probably have to choose humane euthanasia soon. I already let my team know I'll need a few days afterwards. But will I have to take PTO or can I mark it as bereavement leave?

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u/TigerLilly00 — 10 days ago
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How do you know when it's time?

My dog is almost 17 years old. His health has been on the decline lately, and this past week or so it's gotten so bad. He has a history of seizures and heart conditions. Lately he's been having syncopes (?) I believe, which is when their blood pressure drops and they go completely limp for a few seconds. This seems to really scare him and he cries out when it happens, while we just hold him and try to make him comfortable. They've severely increased in frequency this past week, to the point where he can't try to get up and walk a few steps without getting them.

We took him to the emergency vet this past weekend and they told me to see a cardiologist. I called my primary vet for a referral but they said to just call the place. I called the place on Monday and have yet to hear back.

I'm afraid his quality of life just can't be turned back. He pees and poos on himself if we aren't constantly watching him, he might walk a few steps when he can but he always falls on the floor and we have to pick him up every minute or so. He still eats, but he won't drink water on his own and we have to force his head down for him to drink it.

I don't know if I'm just being selfish trying to continue to treat him. But I feel like I'll be killing my dog if I put him down. At the same time I'm deathly afraid of him passing during one of his episodes at home, scared and confused.

I don't know what to do. I don't want to lose my puppy.

u/TigerLilly00 — 14 days ago
▲ 114 r/deloitte

My experience with teams that use AI does not match the training Deloitte gives us

I think it's so hypocritical and unfair that Deloitte puts out these trainings on how to use AI (like the Trustworthy AI one), but in practice none of that is actually followed.

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This entire training was all about how AI is not supposed to replace the professional's critical thinking skills, how every AI output is supposed to be reviewed by humans, how there's supposed to be a sense of responsibility and accountability over what AI generates, etc.

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I've been in two projects so far and both relied heavily on AI and none of this guidance was followed. As a matter of fact, on the second project, a coworker pushed for us to use AI tools and generate every bit of code. Leadership was starry eyed about it, and I tried being a good engineer by pointing out that we should be doing human-first development, not AI-first development, and that every bit of code needed to be reviewed. Turned out that was not possible because they wanted us to churn out new features every couple of days, AI was generating hundreds of files and thousands of lines of code, they gave us no time to review anything. And by the time I rolled off that project, the feedback I got on my performance review was that they felt I "was not open to adopting new technologies". All because I dared push back on developing our entire project solely with AI agents and barely any human review. So I ended up being fucked over for trying to have some semblance of accountability over AI usage. God forbid I actually want to learn and be a better engineer rather than just become a glorified prompt engineer and AI babysitter. God forbid someone wants to develop a project the right way - that now means they "aren't open to new technologies".

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Deloitte is a joke and so are these BS trainings that no one takes seriously. Every single person in leadership is starry eyed about AI usage and don't care about accountability until something breaks, then it's just pointing fingers, when it could've been mitigated from the start. God this company is a joke.

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u/TigerLilly00 — 2 months ago
▲ 23 r/deloitte

Performance concerns

So snapshot summaries are out for the first few snapshops of FY27. I've only been with Deloitte for a year now and I already have tons of complaints. I've been on two projects, and on both projects, my managers did not verbally communicate to me that they were unhappy with anything about my work. I've only ever verbally gotten good jobs and thank you for your hard works. Then snapshot summaries come out and I've been consistently marked as average ("agree" on both performance questions) and the comments mention things I've never heard about prior to reading them in the snapshots.

Both projects have also been AI-heavy (no manual coding allowed at all; everything has to be done through the LLM, even bug finding and reviews), and they seem to think that giving us this technology should mean we output 10x more than before, in the same timeframe.

So this most recent snapshot summary that came out today, my manager commented a few nice things but then said that my work "took longer than expected" and "contained errors or discrepancies". This pisses me off for several reasons - the discrepancies he found were not my fault, it was a coworker who decided to mess with my code and do things that were assigned to me. She introduced bugs that I didn't catch until later. And secondly, they straight up did not give us enough time to review the code generated by the LLM. We were building an entire web application from the ground up; thousands of lines of code and hundreds of files being generated at once. More often than not we were asked to finish a full feature in a day or two. They seem to think generated code doesn't need to be thoroughly reviewed, but then complain when there are bugs or errors.

This is all so incredibly unfair. Why does Deloitte operate this way? What's with the rose colored glasses about AI, and forcing the workers to output 10x more in the same time frame, for the same salary?

Anyway. I had been marked as underperforming for FY26 with "agree" in performance questions (almost the exact same situation, AI-heavy, no time to review, no comments until snapshot summary - plus my mother died last year), and now with this lukewarm review for FY27, what can I expect going forward? I fixed all the issues my previous manager had raised in the beginning of FY26 and he said as much, but that made 0 difference and they still marked me as underperforming. They're just gonna mark me as underperforming again, aren't they? No matter what I do?

Should I just start interviewing elsewhere at this point? I was gonna hold off on doing that because I just joined another team/project that seems a lot more interesting than the previous two I've been with, and there's a good chance I can stay with them long term. But if they're just gonna keep pulling this crap in order to avoid giving me bonuses or promote me, I feel like jumping ship is the best option at this point.

Is there something I'm missing here? What is the guidance for my situation?

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u/TigerLilly00 — 3 months ago