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I really jinxed myself eith my last post 💀😭. My step-dad is coming back as I type this. Yaaaaaay back to screaming and fighting and beating one another and alcohol. This is just awesome. This is soooo great. Man I'm so fucked. I hate to wish or pray or even think of that kinda thing but seriously hoping this man just dies. He probably did a bunch of drugs wherever he had been at so maybe that mixed with age will take him out. Idk just need support

This is just a rant/vent I'm legit shaking and feel so anxious. We have been very dependent upon our church for basic things like food and money for our electricity. Everyone at our church treats us very well so this isn't about the congregation this is about the people we're closest to. I'll call them the Walton's. They first introduced us to the church and have done a LOT for us. When I say a lot I really mean it. I'm forever grateful for them and I truly do appreciate it but our relationship with them has kinda been drifting apart. Mr. Walton is still chill even though we haven't been able to help as much. It is Mrs. Walton though. Things have definitely not been as good with her especially recently. Her rings and stuff have been missing for a month and we just found out about it Sunday. The way she talks about it though she clearly thinks it's us. We clean their house sometimes for them but thats about it. The last time we were there was like maybe two months ago? She was talking about how it has to be somebody they know and when we suggested someone obvious who kinda has a track record of doing some stuff that is a bit shady she instantly was like no it had to be a woman. She called again today because we weren't there for the last day of our week day bible study and was talking about how it has been stressing her out how they still don't know who it was. She has been talking about how she is "gonna have to get the word out there", but why haven't you told Mr. Walton then? He does a lot and I understand not wanting to overwhelm him but still. Then let me tell you the BEST part. She qas talking about how her son used to be a sheriff and he has connections and whoever stole it will be going to jail for a long time. I tried giving her the benefit of the doubt sunday when she told us this stuff because she has been dealing with a lot because she has this weird thing on her eye they have to scrape off and someone tried to cash a check for 5k that luckily didn't pass but still. I feel so hurt she would even think it was us. Idk what to do. She said they're going to file a report Thursday and obviously the police arr going to call us since we are an obvious suspect I guess. But it felt like we were a bigger suspect or whatever than the men that had full access to her house for three fucking days since they wete bombing the house for bugs. Idk I'm having sucha bad panic attack. It really hurts my feelings she thought we did this because she is someone who I have valued so much in my life. I feel like I wouldn't be as scared though because my mom is obviously very offended. I don't want her to act poorly when the police do call. We don't have the rings obviously but she made me feel scared because why bring up your son being an ex-sheriff and all his past connections? It would've been less hurtful if she asked straight up or just told us to fuck off. I can't even get my school work done rn because I feel so anxious. I don't wanna be in trouble for something I didn't do. Sorry if this is all messy. I'd really appreciate some kind words and advice rn

It's open to everybody but free in Florida. I think I had started the program a while back. I forgot what I was doing before that but it was so buns. I actually really like flvs. My teachers are all nice and not too strict on deadlines. I saw some people in the sub mentoon not liking it though. I thought it would be higher rated since it isn't something weirdly religious like Rebecca and it definitely is a valid program since you can get credits for completing classes. Idk, what do ya'll think?

I remember being so excited when I was little at the idea of goong to prom. It was just like one of those events that seemed like you just experienced it no matter what. I'm 17 so unless I get lucky within a year or so I'm never gonna see it. I'm not really even super disappointed, just shocked. It seems like such a common thing to attend and I missed it. It feels so embarrassing tbh. I guess it's really the only time other than a wedding someone gets to dress up. I can't really think of any specific reason outside of that. I'm just honestly in shock that I'm prom age. It all feels so distant and alien. I guess there are other things in my life though and I'll just be grateful for those 😭