u/Time_Box7214

Alright so I really want the Rockafire Explosion, mostly Dook and Billy Bob, but DESPERATELY Billy Bob. I'm a bear fan so its natural. But depending on how many there are, how likely am I to find one? I don't care if he is damaged, I will buy the necessary materials to fix him. I know they are super expensive and I have no experience with mechanics, but I'm interested in learning. I just need to make sure I'm not delusional, like I'd ever have a chance to possess one.

I love being inspired by so many things that I want to either have them as hobbies or actually pursue a career in them. Im almost 20 and haven't gotten anywhere with my life, sure I've gotten a job but I don't know how to drive, I feel like I can never leave the house- it's a lot to get into.

Anyway, I've been wanting to become a comic illustrator for the longest time. Years at this point. There is just a problem, my art isn't good enough. So I sit down and watch a tutorial, but I get so overwhelmed with the first step that I lose motivation in it. It feels like a chore.

The same goes for what I want to do as hobbies (as well as ones that might become careers in the future as well). I want to be an actor/voice actor, I want to be a YouTuber/streamer, I want to start a small business (and try to attend artist alleys at conventions) But I feel guilty that I just now want to start these as like a fun things to do when people actually take these seriously and consider them jobs/careers, so I feel like I have to take them seriously too. But I struggle with consistency. I have no acting experience, I have no money for equipment nor coaching.

The moment I sit down to watch tutorials or search up, "How to Start ..." I get so overwhelmed with the steps to get there and my mind goes, "Well maybe you shouldn't/can't do that then. And I get back to square one where I feel like I'm getting no where. People have told me that I have to choose one thing but knowing me, is get dead set on that one thing that I won't focus on the others, and if I do, I won't focus on what I originally started with. I wanna learn how to balance it all without having them.

I just need advice, and if it's just laziness that I'm experiencing, please just tell me, let me know the truth.

(PLEASE DONT SEND HATE TO ANYONE, INVOLVED IN THIS RANT, THAT JUST AINT RIGHT) Okay, so I recently found out about the wonderful band that is the Rockafire Explosion. I've also found out about the creator, Aaron Fechter and his unfortunate actions. I've also found out about the very defensive and insecure way he interacts with his fans. When it comes to this I tend to say, "Like the art, not the artist." But it also makes me wonder how people handle working with him when it comes to the band itself, like the voice acting for example. Dook LaRue recently got a new voice actor and I was curious on what his thoughts about Fechter are concerning his actions toward his own community. But again that's just an example.

Before I found out the actions of Aaron Fechter, I was inspired by Brandon Shepherd specifically into wanting to voice act. I wanted to practice, wanting to be the voice of Mitzi Mozzarella in the future. (if there was need for a new one in the future) But as a POC, learning about Aaron Fechter's racism, as well as his other unfortunate choices, I've become very hesitant.

(I'm not a professional voice actor, but I was willing to try out voice acting for once because of how inspired I was from this community and the creation of the Rockafire Explosion which shows how much of an impact it has on not just me but on how it probably has on the community as a whole.) Its disappointing to know that the creator of something well loved isn't a good person. But in this time, that's more common than ever, unfortunately.

Okay, Rant over.