I can’t find myself in my work?
So, to start, I wanna say that I’ve been a successful and highly talented artist for a long time, and I’ve never really had issues with getting work or positive feedback. But honestly, my art just doesn’t feel like me anymore, and it hasn’t for years. I think back to who I was around 2019–2021, and I genuinely loved drawing back then, even though my art was honestly kinda shitty compared to where I am now. 😭 I don’t really know what changed, or if maybe I changed, but something definitely feels different.
I’m confident in my art and in the way I draw, and I’m constantly improving. I know I’m good at what I do, but it feels like there’s no soul behind my work anymore? I don’t really know how else to describe it. Like, I can look at something I made and know that it’s good, but I don’t always feel connected to it.
And maybe I shouldn’t even be upset about it, or maybe it’s stupid for me to think about it this much, but I just don’t feel the same amount of love for creating anymore. The weirdest part is that I seem to find that love again when I’m experiencing a strong negative emotion and draw while I’m feeling it. That’s when my work actually feels like mine again, and I don’t really know what that says about me or why it’s like that.