u/Top-Entrepreneur1967

For those who are struggling or have previously struggled with inner conflict and guilt about believing in God while also practicing magic and divination, how do you overcome or cope with it?

I casted my first spell over a year ago and this is still something that hurts me. I find myself pulling away from God, magic, or both at different points in time because I feel so uncomfortable doing both. I believe that this is why I regularly get negative predictions in readings that involve the combination as well. Even when I am not thinking about this, I still get negative readings and I believe it's because of the guilt and inner conflict.

I literally feel like crying right now because I can't see myself permanently cutting ties with either. I have tried to stop believing in God but I can't. I have tried to stop believing in and practicing magic and divination but I can't. What do you do in this case? I am tired of this.

I am torn between the two options. I am not sure if I should go to trade school so that I can start working and gaining experience sooner or go to college and eventually get around to working. I am about to turn 24, so I kind of feel like I don't want to take too much time figuring out and establishing a clear career path. Which route did you take, and what would you say are the pros and cons of either/both?