u/Top-Wind-6478

When I was in the first grade of junior high school, I was often bullied because I didn't fit in with my classmates who were delinquents. The story continued until I graduated from junior high school. I was laughed at by my classmates, made fun of, and had p*nises drawn on my shirt, simply because I tried to fit in with them. Not only that, my mother's rude behavior towards me and my father's absence for me because they were both divorced made my teenage years ruined and full of depression.

In high school, I attended a school that upheld religious and academic values. However, I thought the nightmare was over. The teasing, bullying and ostracization continued. I decided to be a young man who was withdrawn and afraid to socialize because I was skeptical of the people I knew.

Until now, at the age of 27, I have never had a partner or close friends because I am afraid of socializing. I just hoped that those who bullied me would be crushed and destroyed, but instead of them being destroyed, I was the one who was destroyed. The trauma formed my apathetic character and didn't care about anyone including my own family. However, I still have sensitivity towards anyone who is bullied, oppressed and harassed by others. I wish I died defending someone like that even I'm always lose, because I think that would be a cool way to end my life.