TW vent post 21 He/Him
4 days ago I thought that safe low-no sex love was possible, he even said that he was demi! We share hobbies and both have mobility issues and I thought everything was perfect but 4 days ago he drops on me that he has a high libido, lost his virginity and got an std late august (we’ve been talking since April) and said it all in a please don’t leave me I’m feeling serious about this relationship way, so I guess my parents were right, I guess the therapist I had at 16 was right, everyone wants sex, I regret breaking up with my ex, with ever thinking he violated me, I led him on, I indulged him, I roleplayed, I agreed to ageplay/petplay and cnc/free use and then took my consent back and re okayed it so many times that of course he was confused! I feel stupid for ever considering myself a rape victim, also before anyone suggests therapy my parents have said no because my agoraphobia + selective mutism are keeping me from making appointments myself and they think I need to grow up and do it myself even though therapy could literally help me with that but it’s my fault they think I’m lazy anyways