I know recently she got a ton of lash back for asking her followers to pay for her dental care and cancelled the go fund me she made. Now she’s posted that she’s going to the hospital because she was “cancelled”. Surprised nobody on here is talking about it.
Ēla nightclub which was rebranded from Electric Hotel is hosting controversial “influencer” Clavicular. I met the owner of Electric Hotel before who lived in the Trump. Why would any nightclub willingly host this guy?
How do these content creators fund their life (she got a boob job not long ago) if they don’t even make content? She’s had this page for her “business” for literally forever and never posts. It’s been in the works for so long.
I honestly don’t know if I am unjustified anymore. I have been with my partner for over a year and half and I find myself constantly being blamed for him not planning dates, caring when I’m crying or sick on me not putting out in our relationship. Honestly we’ve never had sex. I want sex but everytime I feel a little bit interested I start to think about how he treats me sometimes and idk I just get turned off which sucks. I realize that’s a huge issue as intimacy is important to him and honestly to me, too. Unfortunately though the suggestions I’ve had like maybe he plans a date or uses more soft words when we argue like I try and do seem to go unheard. When he’s upset with me it stays that way. He will be upset for as long as he wants even if I apologize 100 times or didn’t do anything at all. Somedays I will spend hours crying asking him to just be a little softer and see what I am saying too and he will just be even harsher and go back to working on his computer. Every couple has disagreements, sometimes maybe I do like pick at him about something unneeded and I bet that’s frustrating but what’s different between us is how we act when we’re upset with each other. At this point, anytime he does something that does hurt my feelings he immediately tells me he’s not happy with me and that I don’t care about him since intimacy hasn’t happened and it hurts.
Yesterday was my birthday. The night before my birthday he told me someone he just started interacting with professionally gave him 2 unamarked 2 pills when he told the guy he was going to take me to dinner for my birthday. I told him that’s unprofessional and gross and why didn’t he say anything. He told me at first he said no thanks but inevitably took them in order to not make it weird. I told him that’s unprofessional and it also makes me feel gross as like his partner. He told me I have no right to feel that way. I honestly just got quiet for a minute and didn’t say anything. To which he then stated going off on me on how this doesn’t deserve being upset over and that I am over emotional. I told him I’m entitled to my feelings and I’m not arguing with him. He continued to tell me that he knows how to conduct himself professionally and doesn’t want to hear what I have to say about it and that he should’ve never told me to begin with. I just kept saying it matters how I feel like it does. I kept asking him to be softer with me and be nice to me and he just kept going. I said it’s the day before my bday like please don’t do this and he just kept doing it. All night he did. He stayed out of the bed and played video games left me to sleep alone and wake up alone for my birthday even after I said he needs to just apologize and be a little softer. He stood by how he felt on my birthday too and didn’t plan anything for me.. I planned tons of stuff months in advance for his and gifts that were super personal. Honestly he’s super generous financially like he really is but preparing for his bday or mine isn’t about $$.. I just wanted to feel important and I had asked if he could get a dinner reservation and it didn’t happen.
Honestly all the time he argues with me the reason he isn’t there for me is being I don’t make his physical needs a priority. The honest truth is though like I have physical needs too and I also am not having them met but the emotional has to come before that for me in a relationship and it’s just weird. He says comments to me that make me feel really gross about my body and maybe why I’m here. Maybe I am just sensitive. Somedays I feel really confused. If I am sick he never gets up to hold my hair or offer to take care of me. I even started a new medication recently that we knew would have some downsides in the beginning and one night my stomach hurt from it and he told me he was disappointed we couldn’t have fun that night together because I wanted to lay and I said why can’t you just offer to cuddle me and cried and he was sooo annoyed. I could give 100 other scenarios.
Some context to me that I think is important: before I dated this person my means of survival was SW. unfortunately for me that meant I did not have the most stable life prior, mostly interacted with not the kindest men and used drugs. I got clean immediately after meeting my partner (for him but really for me) and I still am! Woot. Separately though, I definitely have trauma with sex and I think sometimes he thinks the intimacy isn’t there because of my past but in reality it’s because I have learned from my past that real intimacy is this emotional support that leads me to be physical in my actual personal life. My birthday last year was extremely tough because around that time is when my friends were really pushing me to stay on a drug path and I was trying to get away from.. I ended up having to let most of them out of my life after having multiple conversations with them about how asking me to supply them drugs or do them was no longer being my friend to me. That same day on my birthday last year he told me I should feel bad for not putting out and I cried myself to sleep too. I just was trying to get clean, lost all my friends and even my mom during that time and he was aged on me then and now a year later.. it’s just the same thing.. same problem. Maybe I am the problem. I want him to feel loved but I just feel so gross forcing myself to be intimate if I don’t genuinely feel it after all those years that I thought I just escaped from
He’s asked me to go looking at engagement rings multiple times, asked to get a dog multiple times and I am the one who keeps saying no because we don’t have a healthy relationship and it’s weird to me he asks to do those things when he says he isn’t happy and has even said he thinks we’re in dealbreaker territory. It takes all the fun and romance away from those moments and I don’t see why we would do those if we can’t even fix this. He pays for EVERYTHING. He literally spoils me so much by paying for every single bill in the house. But anytime I suggest wanting to have a high paying job he says “I wish you wouldn’t focus on the money” which sounds cute and always did sound cute until I just started to feel like maybe he doesn’t want me to be as successful as him or have income (maybe that’s a stretch I really don’t want to think he thinks that). I honestly don’t care that he pays for everything like I am happy to work, have asked multiple times if I should etc and we’re fine. But I do care that he doesn’t really do anything but that I feel like.. am I crazy? I feel like this is some woman’s dream!! i feel like I should be more grateful how much he helps out financially but I just feel like I’m missing literally all this other stuff that matters honestly more to me. Idk I feel insane. I want someone who likes to think of those little things and it doesn’t need to be something crazy.