hit the bottom again.
I was 1 year sober from playing online casino games. I lost 150k last year at this same exact month. I deleted and deactivated my accounts on prev online casinos.
This week my co-worker was talking about "sugal" and the cashback system. Plus my recent environment was around people who were playing online gambling. I suddenly got the urge to try with casino plus. So I started small because i had an extra 1000 pesos in my e-wallet. So I won on the slots another 1000 pesos. Then I played slots again, with high bet sizes. Then i lost. So i put in another 10k, then another 10k, but to no avail. -- I lost all. Now i turned to baccarat (golden wealth) and loaded another 40k on my account. I used the escalera method which initial worked, but later on got the best of me. Now again I hit rock bottom. I confessed to my partner which made us fight and go to an arguement.
Funny thing di naman nakakaiyak pero yung feeling na empty grabe... tapos feeling ko kada bet ko ay kahit with-in my control ay di ko parin mapigilan sarili ko. Im earning only more or less 25k a month. Now, I got only 20k on my savings left. Also good thing that I settled my credit card dues and shopee dues beforehand ( i paid them early ) so wala ako utang kanino man.
This sucks 😞. Admittedly this is my life choice but in the heat of the moment the temptation got the best of me.