Starting my 2nd year tomorrow and I'm already exhausted...
Tomorrow is the first day of my second year of college, and instead of being excited, I'm honestly terrified.
We have new professors this semester, which means introducing myself all over again, speaking in class, and going through those first-day interactions. It's mentally exhausting even before it has happened.
The thing that frustrates me the most is when people say, "Just don't overthink," or "Don't be nervous."
I wish it were that simple.
Even when I'm genuinely calm, I still stutter. My stutter isn't only caused by anxiety. Sometimes I can be completely relaxed and still get stuck on words.
I'm just tired of constantly worrying about how introductions will go, whether I'll get blocked on my name, whether people will stare, or whether the teacher will think I'm unprepared.
I know I'll get through tomorrow because I always do, but right now I just feel mentally exhausted.