i am so exhausted
i've struggled with this severe chronic fatigue for so long. years, even. not as long as i've had dpdr, but it's been a problem for a while. i am so fucking exhausted ALL THE TIME. i feel like i can't ever get enough sleep, i feel so out of it all the time, i feel like i am never truly rested. it is so bad that i cannot even shower regularly. depending on how bad it is, i've gone weeks without a shower. i felt disgusting and awful and i wanted to shower so bad but i just felt such a heavy weight on me. i'm beginning to wonder if this is caused by dpdr. i was diagnosed with sleep apnea months ago but i've been consistent on treatment and i'm still just as fatigued as before. i assume it's not all dpdr, i have a plethora of mental health issues (bpd, adhd, etc.) but man am i just exhausted. i want to start taking care of myself right, to get better, get healthier. it's just so difficult and disheartening as someone actively in recovery (bpd).