u/TreacleEconomy2799

I’m so depressed from the time I wake up till the time I go to bed. I see all the other girls so happy living their life and it breaks my heart because I want to be one so bad. All I can think about is that I’m a liar fraud and in denial. I constantly feel like I’m faking being a girl even though I never felt like this before ever it’s heartbreaking. I truly think there is something going on with my gender even though I truly don’t want it to be. I went to the store today picked out a blush that I felt would make me feel beautiful then I kept thinking why am I getting this I’m not a real woman anyway why do I need this. It’s to the point now that I feel that I am a man inside like I have a complete mismatch with my gender I am so sad. This has to be real if I was cis I wouldn’t even question it I wouldn’t feel like a man I would know I was a women I miss my life. I want to be a women but how am I supposed to pretend to be one my whole life even though it’s what I truly want :(

I feel like I can’t do this anymore. I wake up everyday with severe depression constantly want to cry constantly anxious and constantly questioning my gender from the time I wake up till I go to bed. I absolutely love my female body and how I look, I even got all dolled up today to go to my school library she the whole time getting ready I was severely depressed I don’t know who I am anymore j don’t think this is ocd. The truth is I truly don’t want to be a man or any other gender I want to be the girl I always was before it’s my dream. But I can’t stop questioning my gender I’m afraid that this anxiety and depression is from repressed gender dysphoria. This started from a random thought five months ago what if I’m bored of being a woman it’s so sad. I want my life back but maybe I have to accept I’m in denial.

Hello! I am 21 (F) and have had many ocd themes throughout my life. I am hoping that this is ocd as well. It started one morning when I woke up with a random thought “what if you’re bored of being a women” and it had not left since. This is going on five months now. The morning anxiety was horrible at first but since I switched from Citalopram to Setraline the anxiety went away but the constant gender questioning has not. I’m also concerned since I seen a lot of videos that said cis people don’t question their gender. I truly don’t want to be a man non binary or anything else. I was so happy being a women and connected to that until I get this thought. When I’m not with friends or in class I’m in my dorm crying, I think about this from the time I wake up till I go to bed. I would do anything to be the girl I was before I know go by agender in my head because it’s the only thing that is keeping me calm. I am terrified I am having a late in life gender crisis. I would do anything to be the girl I was before but this feels way to real I am constantly depressed and cry constantly and it’s all I think about. I’m sorry if this is offensive to anyone I. The lgbtqia+ community I just needed to get this out :)