u/TrueGhostOrchid

My older sister passed away a year ago and I still can't get over it, a lot of family drama happened around the time she died and I keep having dreams of her, I think its making me really depressed and to cope I been eating her old candy to feel like she's still with me enjoying snacks with me ((better then my old coping habits)) and it's not like I can exactly go to therapy ((I don't have the time bc I'm taking care of my deadbeat brothers kids)) I feel so self negative rn bc I gained a lot of weight by my standards. ((Ik to some people it's not but I feel like on my height it looks really bad)) idk if anyone has any advice on how to motivate yourself to trying to get back in shape or if I'm just being dumb and need to get over it.