6 Years on Dialysis at 28 — Does Anyone Else Feel Like the Mental Side Is Harder Than People Realize?
I’ve been on dialysis since I was 22, and I’m 28 now. Sometimes I genuinely sit back and wonder where those years even went.
Sometimes the hardest part of dialysis isn’t even the treatment itself. It’s the grief for the life you didn’t fully live when your body still allowed you to.
I spent so many years just studying, staying home, avoiding risks, not socializing much, not traveling, not even trying simple things people take for granted — random foods, drinks, long outings, freedom.
Now I can’t even drink water freely.
And some days I sit there thinking: if I ever get my life back, even for just a year or two, I would live completely differently. I’d travel. Try everything. Meet people. Stop treating normal days like they’ll last forever.
The weird thing is… “normal life” itself feels nostalgic to me now.
Even something as ordinary as the feeling of a full bladder or needing to pee feels like a memory from another lifetime.