I swear, one moment I was 13 making posts on here about Powerpuff Girls Z and Just Dance almost every day, and the next I'm close to turning 18 and being rarely active on here compared to before.
In case you're curious or don't remember, my birthday is May 24th, so keep that in mind if you feel like celebrating it :)
I think they got hacked or something. I had to unblock them to report a message AND NOW I CANNOT BLOCK THEM AGAIN FOR 24 HOURS! I'm scared. WHAT DO I DO!? WILL I GET HACKED SOON!? I guess I have to leave Reddit now...
I would like to apologize for my previous post from yesterday, the one about me wanting to write magical girls despite me not being Japanese.
Someone on the other magical girl subreddit said that "American magical girls aren't real magical girls" or something along those lines, claiming that "Americans need to be original and create original stories". And that hurt me, since I'm American that loved magical girls and liked making magical girl-inspired stories. Looking back, all those replies I made to them sounded like I had a victim mentality, even if that wasn't what I intended. And I cannot look back at those replies without feeling the need to vomit, because why did I word my comments like THAT. I sounded so privileged that it makes me feel embarrassed.
And what did I do when I saw those comments? MAKE AN ENTIRE POST ABOUT ME WORRYING THAT I WAS "COLONIZING MAGICAL GIRLS" 💀. I acted emotionally, not logically. I genuinely thought that making the aforementioned post was something I needed to do to help get those worries out of my head, but as it turns out, IT WASN'T, and it sunk my reputation badly, and it made people upset and frustrated.
I didn't think my previous post would upset that many people, but it did, and I'm sorry. I would also like to apologize for sounding manipulative and sounding like I have a victim mentality. I was hoping to get some sort of feedback, but I didn't go about it in a good way, and it made people believe that I was genuinely being manipulative and having a victim complex (And none of those people knew who I was, so they had a right to believe that I was being manipulative or having a victim complex, even if I wasn't). While my intentions were good, the way I acted wasn't. I genuinely thought I was being "humble" by not wanting to piss off other people, but that completely backfired and I ended up hurting others in the end.
While I do not expect people to forgive me for my actions, I do wish for people to understand where I'm coming from, and take me accountable. I might distance myself from the magical girl fandom and avoid watching magical girl media in general after all of this, because I feel like I cannot trust myself around those without getting myself into further trouble and possibly even causing harm to others. Additionally, I'll probably just get flashbacks to that controversy, and not be able to enjoy magical girls the way I used to.
It was not cool for me to act the way I did, and it disappoints me greatly that I let myself act that way, which was what my 2026 NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS told me NOT to do. I messed up, badly, and I cannot let myself get away with this. And just so you know, I'm almost 18, so it feels extra shitty for me to let myself act so impulsively and do something that I'd regret severely at MY BIG AGE, I'm practically an adult, so why am I acting so impulsively like a kid? Once again, I am sorry for what I've done. And I apologize for how I treated all of you.
NOTE: This is a repost of a post I attempted to make yesterday, but it got deleted for being too recent. I feel like I cannot move on without making a public post that holds me accountable. I'm not the best at writing apologies (or writing at all tbh), so I tried to make sure my post here didn't sound like self victimizing.
Edit: Please forget this post.
I'm Sorry
I would like to apologize for my previous post, the one about me wanting to write magical girls despite me not being Japanese. I saw comments from the other magical girl subreddit and acted emotionally, not logically. I didn't think my previous post would upset that many people, but it did and I'm sorry. I would also like to apologize for sounding manipulative and sounding like I have a victim mentality. While my intentions were good, the way I acted wasn't. I genuinely thought I was being humble by not wanting to piss off other people, but that backfired and I ended up hurting others in the end.
I'm hesitant to be active on this subreddit now, since I'm worried that I'll act up again and have people rightfully pissed off at me just by being merely active on here. I fucked up my reputation, I do not know how I'll ever even fix it at all. While I do not expect people to forgive me for my actions, I do wish for people to understand where I'm coming from. I'll consider leaving this subreddit if it's necessary.
Once again, I'm sorry. And I apologize for how I treated all of you.
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Hello, this is a follow up from my last post on here.
The reason I'm making this post is because I saw the comments from a post on the other magical girl subreddit that claimed that American "magical girls" aren't real magical girls, since they rarely understand what makes magical girls MAGICAL GIRLS, and the fact that magical girls are inherently Japanese and making works inspired by magical girls when you aren't Japanese gives "How to draw manga books" vibes, failing to replicate the magic that real, Japanese magical girls have.
Since I'm American and NOT Japanese, I feel like I'm colonizing the magical girl genre and stealing it from the Japanese, similar to how white people regularly steal the culture from Black people and refuse to acknowledge that they're stealing Black culture from them.
I feel like just being merely INSPIRED by inherently Japanese stories makes me feel like a racist colonizer that steals from other cultures like a hoarding pig. And even if I WERE Japanese, I feel like I'm not even a real fan of magical girls, since I'm rarely able to finish watching real, Japanese magical girl anime due to some odd reason, so maybe I'm the wrong person to make magical girl-inspired works, since I'm a very masculine Butch lesbian and not exactly the most feminine person ever (refer to my previous post here if you're confused).
To quote a reply I received recently, "Or Americans can be original and make their ideas". By making magical girl-inspired works when I'm not even Japanese myself, I feel like I'm colonizing magical girls, and I need to be more original, which means I need to scrap ALL of my current magical girl works, including one Pretty Cure fanseries. I don't want to be a colonizer, after all. And real magical girl works have merchandise, but I'm still in school and lack a proper bank account and credit card, which means I cannot sell merch and thus my "magical girl"-inspired works are not real magical girls anyway...
So what do you think of this? Am I overthinking this or am I actually correct and need to scrap all of my current "magical girl"-inspired works so I'm not colonizing magical girls and stealing it from the Japanese?