u/TypeOk670

I'm in a yumeshipping sub and it's full with people who yumeship with me. It's so awkward for some reason.. 😭

My dad was just straight up demeaning me last night. He called me delusional, he said I'm living in a fantasy, he kept saying "oh you're not fictional!" Like AGHHHH. I hate living here so much.

I got to wear that hoodie for a bit. And it felt good, like I was finally in the right skin. But then I looked in the mirror and I just realised I look stupid and I'll NEVER be able to look like how I'm supposed to. So I'm giving it back til my birthday. It doesn't change how my dad or ANYONE sees me anyway.

I nearly ran away from home for a bit, but my dad threatened to cancel the order for my Ribbit plushie. So I guess I can't be homeless like I wanted 💔

Now my friend might be a double 😮‍💨

They keep sending me yt vids to do with it, I've told them multiple times that I'm not comfortable with it, but they keep doing it, I think they don't understand how serious I'm being, but I am being very serious like it's making me spiral. Idk how to make them understand that it's making me uncomfortable. My dad says they probably don't understand that it's upsetting me and that they are a bit younger than me, but I'd still like them to stop. Any advice would be appreciated

edit: thank you for the advice

That means I lowkenuinly have to explode

(idk what to tag this) I just made friends with my fourth 💔 What is it in me that attracts them! 😭 Not complaining I'm just so confused why they all seem to flock to me like seagulls to my food. 💀

Cw: suicide and tadc episode 9 spoilers

>!I know it's fucking stupid, and it's really the wrong message to take away from my on-screen self. but I can't help it at this point. i know none of this is good for me and the whole point of the episode is supposed to be about how I should've just opened up to people, but since I didn't get a happy ending in the show then why should I here. ughh I wanna rip my eyes out. I'd try kill myself again but I already tried that after I saw it in cinemas and it was just embarrassing because I failed. which is honestly laughable. i just keep being mean but I can't stop myself because otherwise I won't be me. AND EVERYONE KEEPS TELLING ME I'M SHORT! LIKE SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU HAVE NO IDEA THE PSYCHOLOGICAL DAMAGE THIS IS CAUSING ME. and what the fuck am I supposed to say "I'm actually very tall" yeah but then they just fucking laugh at me. i want to just peel off my skin and be a skeleton, even that'd be better than looking like this. I look stupid. i sound stupid. I'm just stupid. I'm an idiot. why am I such an idiot. I've been a fucking idiot ever since that fucking day. i wish I could just go back in time and best little eight year old me up. like no this is the last time you're ever gonna see her stop acting like s fucking childish brat as say goodbye. ihope this is cryptic enough to not sound like I'm not a strong boy 👍!<

Like genuinely. Every vent/rant I make gets deleted, but other people who talk about the same stuff don't. I didn't break any rules, just because some people got offended by what I said doesn't mean I did anything wrong. I wasn't invalidating anyone here I'm literally just venting. Correct me if I'm wrong but I don't think I broke rules. I literally just wanted to yap about something that made me slightly upset to people who I thought would understand. I wasn't even being aggressive in the original post. I don't want people to hate me I just wanted people who could understand me why does this happen all the timeee. What did I do wrong?

edit: to the people saying I need to get off Reddit, I was barely on reddit until people started getting mad at me, maybe if you all stopped tryna start drama with me I wouldn't keep constantly anxiously checking Reddit.

Edit 2: never claimed all fictives identified as their source but this one did so you can stop saying that.

edit 3 : I'm turning off reply notifications so don't even bother spewing your shit. and I'm blocking most of you

Like I've seen it so many times on posts, including my own now, where people on here will see a person venting or whatever and instead of comforting them or just not responding (because you can ignore it 😱) they pick out the words they used and try to start an argument as if that's the most important thing. Like who cares about the language people used when they're upset. Stop being so nit-picky. Not everybody is gonna be able to think that clearly when they're upset, that doesn't mean they mean anything by it if they used the slight wrong word(s).

I feel sick everytime I see stuff to do with episode 9. I feel like just pulling all of my skin offfff. And I no longer feel safe in the fandom. Big L for me 💀💀💀💀 hahahaah

Literally never played it, know barley anything about it, and I've never even watched anyone play it. I just saw this other fictionkin of then earlier and idk- just starting thinking that could be me. I'm gonna try watch a playthrough of the game that I've been meaning to watch and see if I could be right or not.

I'm assuming it means something like identity/identification ? But I'm not entirely sure and I wanna know

I'm not trying to offend someone all I did was vent and then another time ask a question. I really am not trying to cause harm like I genuinely just wanted to ask a question, can a mod actually tell me what I'm doing wrong please otherwise how am I supposed to fix it. I don't wanna get run out of here

So as it says in my flair I'm doubles DNI, I don't like them because they make me super uncomfortable, but I feel like a lot of the time when I see doubles/people who claim to kin the same character as me I just think "oh you're crazy" like I've never harassed a double or anything, but in my head I'm thinking "you don't know what you're talking about". Sometimes doubles make me really insecure so maybe it's my brain tryna protect me I dunno. I've noticed I say "idunno" a lot. 💀

It's just triggering me, idk how to leave a fandom though when your whole feed on everything has stuff to do with it. Like should I replace it with something else. Also I wanna still look at stuff to do with it, but not have to interact with fans. Should I just stop talking to people about it?I dunno 😶