u/Typical-District-176

In less than 12 hours. I will have my first dose of Estrogen. This decision could tear my parents apart due to their conflicting views on trans folks.

and that’s why I’m gonna make them focus on the outrage of me saying I tried skyline chili and that it’s better than my moms barely even an attempt at chili. they won’t even notice the estrogen vial at that point /j

YIPPEEYIPPEEYIPPEEYIPPEEYIPPEEYIPPEEYIPPEE!

I’m still doing this even tho nobody sees :3

I do the high part of in the end by Linkin Park in my girl voice and it’s done wonders. but I know it’s weird

so I have almost shoulder length curly hair(in the back) neck length(sides) and receding hairline (front :‘().

how long until estrogen restores my hairline? like imo hair is the second most important thing to passing outside of a natural demeanor. because if you’re confident, I’ve had people look me up and down and come to the conclusion that I am in fact a woman. Hair is the thing that makes me the most dysphoric and I wanna know how long it could generally be until my hairline restores

I’m 2 weeks from E

about 5-6months from boobs

why do I still hurt?

A shitty haiku from a girl who feels like she’s gonna throw up. what if DIY estrogen doesn’t work? what if I’m shot in the streets by the masked ones? What if I go from a socially-acceptable freak who feels like her skin is rotting and falling off to a monster who’s mimicking femininity? What do I do? I need this so bad and theres a chance it either won’t arrive at all or will arrive while me and my family are gone? What if that causes my E to cook in the box in the sun? What if it doesn’t work and my dosage is off for months until I can get a blood test?

Whats wrong with me? I feel so close and like I’m farther than so many other girls who deserve it more than me? When is it my chance to be happy? I know what being a girl feels like when I’m around my partners, why can’t I catch that anywhere else? Why is it that no matter how much work I put in, I’m destined to rot?

I have curly hair down to my first noticeable spine bump. little bangs due to receding hairline. are there any styles I can make out of that and build past? I don’t wanna show a picture, sorry

I’m ordering estrogen tonight. the site I’m doing the diy from is about to permanently go down. so the E is discounted. this bad thing is going to be a good thing as long as my resolve holds.

So I’m gonna make a vow with all yall

I WILL do this tonight! I WILL BE A GIRL! I WILL GROW BOOBS! I WILL MAKE MY GIRLFRIEND GAYER AND MY BOYFRIEND STRAIGHTER BECAUSE I AM A BADDIE IN THE MAKING

edit: Idk if the moddesses will nuke me for saying this. But to those that ask. I will DM the site name and basic info but not send a link. I don’t wanna blindly send a link because that could look like I’m stealing yalls data.

edit 2: IT WENT THROUGH! Hey and btw the original site is now completely out of stock. I had to switch to a new site with the same process

edit 3: so this is a wild turn of events. And I wanna tell the story of today and how this happened. Because webtoon caused it and spider-man financed it. So I found a really awesome webtoon called Riverine. It’s about a trans girl who gets superpowers and has to deal with transitioning, secret identities, and college. Which is really relatable and gender envy for me. So I got caught up in a fugue state and felt dysphoric afterwards, saying that I’d order HRT next paycheck. Now, at dinner, I checked OGL on a whim to see what the price would be. Seeing that the site is being taken down. I panic, thinking that I’ll never be able to be me. I see that the estrogen is on sale and I get hope and strength to continue. So as of tonight, I’ve ordered it for 75 bucks. But how was i able to get the money? Well. So I bout Spider-Man 2 for my PC last week. It couldnt run so I returned it to steam. My refund FINALLY kicked in, and I realized. The character who gave me hope for decades of my life had given me one more gift. The money I needed to save came from money I was able to spend last paycheck and got back this one.

I live 40 minutes south of Nashville, I don’t have the time to go into Nashville but this seemed better than my town’s subreddit, if it even had one. Is there anywhere yall would recc closer to Franklin? if I’m in the wrong spot, I’ll see if I can cross post to a franklin subreddit if there is one. I don’t live in Franklin, it’s just a midpoint

I’m so close to maybe being able to start E. but I’ve said that almost 7 times the last 14 weeks. every time I do, something happens to make budgeting hard. and I read a webtoon today that hit very close to home about what I wanna do and who I wanna be and my dysphoria is being mean and idk what to do. it’ll be at least Tuesday by the time I can order the E and I’m currently about to throw up and I also have to buy ten faire tickets and survive the fascist overtaking and i don’t know what to do and I just feel overwhelmed by all that I need to do just for a chance at being a person. because I don’t feel like a person, much less a girl. I’m sorry for the terrible grammar. I don’t really care right now because I just wanna ramble and ask for some positivity

they aren’t gone. just asleep :(

I’m wanting to go all out for the local ren faire . but I don’t know anything to wear and if i could please have some images and links that I can build off of? I wanna be a witchy goth lady or a cute mermaid or moth or deer gal

I called my girlfriend for the first time and heard her voice and holy shit she’s so cute like rahhhhhhh and we yapped about spider man and dnd and one piece and holy goddess I am gay