u/Ukelele-in-the-rain

I think I've made it as far as I can go (I'm not made out for senior mgmt). I'm in big tech so despite not being very senior in levels, I'm making above 200k. I don't think I can do better than this honestly.

I get exposure to interesting projects of high complexity. I work with smart people. In a company that has invested a lot in AI (well yeah, I'm in tech) at an individual employee level and I get to experiment with tools that will change how we do things in HR. Projects that I would probably not get this much freedom to experiement if I weren't where I am. Projects that would be great for my resume.

Yet, I'm so so so tired. I took a pay cut to move to this current role to recover from burnout. It's not working. I'm constantly working on a layoff project and before the lastest is done I'm given an NDA for the next one. We have open court cases from each round as tech companies take more and more risks.

I've had multiple health scares and diagnosis recently. We don't know if it's genetics, perimenopause, stress. It just feels relentless. I really want to walk away from it all and take a break, maybe. But with how much things have advanced in only the last 6 months, I don't think I can ever reenter the job market. I'm drowning so deep I can't see the next steps.

Sorry for the ramble. I just wanted to hear from others in the profession, how you're doing? What would you do?

ETA thank you for the replies. I’m still to stick in my spiral to reply to each comment but I’m reading them

I think they don’t believe in regular vet visits, vaccines or flea/tick/worm applications. And it shows. They keep it as an indoor and outdoor cat. Every time I see the cat I feel so bad.

The closer I get to my FIRE number (it’s small compared to what I see posted here), the more I want to see what I can cut in expenses so that I get off the wheel earlier.

My theory is that most of us try to accumulate more than we actually need for psychological safety.

A caveat is that I’m not from the US and don’t have the issue of health care potentially wiping all our savings out.

Am I missing something?

ETA on the numbers. 43, no kids, about 4 yrs to CoastFIRE, and 9 yrs to FIRE, will get a pension that covers ~40% of total expense when I hit the government retirement age.

Basically the title. Currently sitting in Stashaway simple. Is there anything better?

ETA not looking for completely risk free which is what most of the search results in the sub return

ETA 2 thank you everyone who provided input. Went to read up on the various products mentioned. Decision on HSBC Ultra Short Duration Fund thru low cost platforms for a big chunk of the cash. Will continue to Stashaway simple for the monthly emergency fund cash savings