Tell me off? Rant.
Hello, I am a 25 year old soft masc - ill be 26 in November. Ive had a situation going on since may and it just seems to get worse and worse. I wont go into too many details unless its deemed they are needed.
So back in my love of 8 years (25) ended things abruptly- even better she ended it before I had to go to work 🙂.
It was very tense but I guess things didnt work out and we were enjoying life mid june. It was nearly nostalgic. Well the last week of june she calls me before I gotta go to work 🙃 shes crying saying shes pregnant. From what i "know" it was an accident and the father left her because he didn't actually like her.
Here's where we jump into if im naive or not. Thats my love, I have the automatic urge to take care of her. Even if it hurts in a way. She says the father is only back because of the baby, which drives me mad because you need to also cherish the woman carrying your child.
(I grew up with traditional men, but also grew up in a house hold- it didnt matter someone's intentions or how many times they use you, you show kindess and love)
This man hasn't really been involved, ive been there more for her than he has. I wont even let her exert herself because I believe she deserve the most rest and pampering. My problem is I know she doesnt want me, and im still involved with her family and her. And im putting all this effort in to take care of her. I just dont believe in leaving her all alone even though she ultimately betrayed me. No apologies, no thank yous. In my good conscious I still cant walk away. Am I stupid? I know i have everything I need to run, but I cant. I know shes going to fully cut me off and I know itll wreck me. I dont know, I told her dad if I had to id step up and co-parent. I keep getting called brave, honorable , and a great character. I guess this is more of a rant. I love being there for her, shes my love, we grew together through a lot of hard things. She doesnt know it. But I have family in texas getting a room ready for me because I was so bad when she broke things off, I can sense how bad ill be when she fully leaves. I am happy for her it just destroys me she just threw it all away like that.
I know, ive answered my own question. I should cut and run. It's just against what I feel. I just dont understand after all ive put into the relationship. This was supposed to be our year, we were going to move and take vacations. And now I'm not workong for 2 anymore. Just myself and I don't like that. I just want to see the best for her. She deserves it, even if im not in it.