Felling Discouraged and like a HUGE Mess
I am not new to writing, I'm 21 and have been writing scripts since I was around 15... now those scripts are nothing I'd ever want anyone to see, but I am used to this.
However, I have hit a moment where I feel so unsatisfied with everything I write. I don't know how to get that kick. It is not because I have fallen out of love with it, it is because I literally feel like I cannot create something I myself adore. I'll always start writing and think "man I love this" and get twenty pages in and then find myself not wanting to go back to it.
How do I go about this?
For reference I have never actually completed a feature script due to this. I have however written 60-70 pages of one and 50-60 of another, but then I run back through and mutilate them because I feel like this this and that don't work and so on. I've noticed this happen a lot after seeing something I truly think is great, when I watched I Saw the TV Glow or now after seeing Obsession I think "well there is no way I'm ever topping that."
Also, I feel like I am missing a piece of writing. Idk if it is not outlining, not using some hidden thing I don't know about. I truly just feel so lost, more than I ever have.