can alters make you fall asleep?
ive recently been engaging in some content that i know is triggering. its all stuff ive seen before, but when i get into a depressive episode i tend to lean into it full force and instead of fighting it i just try to move through it. i end up watching dark crime dramas or reading about true crime, listening to sad music that i know upsets me, and most often doom scrolling.
today i watched something i knew i shouldn’t before i even hit play, and now i can barely see my phone. im so overwhelmingly tired out of nowhere, it feels like when the er gives you a sedative and you just completely sink into yourself and you can’t fight it even if you wanted to.
and i can’t focus. i keep falling asleep and i keep dissociating. everything feels weird and far away and too much itself at the same time and it’s so disorienting.
anyway, my point is could an alter be making me feel this way? cuz they’ve done weirder stuff to keep me from thinking about things im not supposed to know about, i just don’t know if this is something they’re even capable of doing. or we, i guess, idfk.
i call it windexing. somebody in here (i think it’s a a gatekeeper named iris) literally cuts off my train of thought mid sentence and then i can’t remember what i was thinking about less than a second ago. its usually pretty unsettling when they do that, but ive stopped bothering to question it. this is the first time they’ve bothered with this much effort, if this is them that is.
sry for any grammar or spelling errors btw i can barely see my screen my eyes are crossing over