I woke up with these lyrics playing over and over again in my head but I don't remember what the name of the song is.
It's an emo pop song and the singer sounds like Gerard Way. But I could be misremembering that last part.
I can't sleep. I can't even try. I can't be left alone with my thoughts.
It's, "What's going to happen tomorrow?"
Then, "How shit is tomorrow going to be?"
Then, "I don't want to get out of bed tomorrow."
"I don't even want to wake up tomorrow."
"I don't want to wake up ever again."
"I don't want to be alive right now."
Then I get that feeling of cold hands on my skin and that voice gets in my head and now I'm left alone with her.
"You shouldn't be alive right now."
"You should have died in that bathroom all the way back in year 7"
"Why do you hate me, Ant? I'm not the psycho, you're the one talking to no one in the dead of night."
And I don't know what it fucking is. If it's the result of my poor sleep, if it's the cause or if there is really something fucked up inside me and I should die.